But I turn and clutch the doll to my chest, suppressing tears. This doll, placed so tenderly on the step, is an offering to the passage of time, to growing up, to letting go. It hurts my heart. I don’t want it to come yet. Slowly, I make my way down the stairs, cradling the […]
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As it turns out, the incident in question was deemed to be an accident. Just as I suspected after I asked my child about it. Our childcare provider became involved and asked several other children what they witnessed. It was not a vindictive or intentional act.
Just accept it. There is no sleep. Sleep is a mystery. Sleep is actually a mystery novel to which you don’t even have time to read the table of contents. Unless of course you have somewhere to be early in the morning. If you have made any sort of plan in the morning because your […]
I often feel like I’m charging forward in life, while my heart runs behind me, trying to catch up. Journaling and physical movement provide much-needed space to “metabolize” emotion, so-to-speak, so that I can face life with clarity. This alone is worth the time investment required.
There is nothing like the clean slate feel of a brand new year. There is so much possibility and hope that challenges will improve and that new opportunities will come. I normally make a huge list of resolutions each year. But frankly, in the last few years, I could just change the date at the […]
Time with them is slipping through my fingers, like water wildly gushing from a faucet. I know I can do nothing to stop or alter the flow. But I need to do a better job of closing my fingers and creating a cup to drink from and savor before it flows over and passes me […]
It is in this moment that I’ll remind myself, as I’ve done many times before, that I’ve actually already received every single one of these gifts. I don’t need them; they’re already mine. They may bury themselves down deep inside sometimes, but they’re there.
Each year since then, we have survived and come out the other end stronger. My husband sacrifices time with his family. His children sacrifice time with their dad. I sacrifice time with my husband and partner. But if you accepted the position, then you accepted the good with the bad and you do what you […]
I will look at a frozen pie crust in the store, and think to myself, “Why buy one, when it is so easy to make one?” Yes, it may be easy to make one, but when I am trying to do that and a million other things on a timeline, it’s not easy! Experience has […]
I’m lucky that in the span of our conversation, we bridged the gap that had formed between us. We could try again. And this time, we started over with the understanding that we were different. We started over knowing that we could be completely ourselves with one another; that we had the permission to disagree.